This summer is proving that it will be worthy of any transformation theme. I am working hard at getting my mind straight, quieting fears and listening to my intuition about what is right for the path ahead. Part of this process involves the detailed weighing of pros and cons about homeschooling. I am having to peel back the layers of others' ideas that remain stuck in my head, argue against them, and then toss them aside.
I know there are thousands and thousands of kids who are homeschooled each and every day without issue, but being that we are standing on the edge of a cliff and the drop will be the impact on my child, I want to make sure I have what it takes to make it what it should be. So much of the school environment was about failure for me, so I'm thinking a lot about that. I have decided I need to hold up some of that failure and look at it for what it really was.
I failed (and for many of these, continue to fail) at the following things in public school.
1. I failed at LINEAR THINKING.
2. I failed at CONFORMITY.
3. I failed at CONTEMPORARY ideals of BEAUTY, so I also failed at DATING, DANCES, AND HOMECOMING.
4. I failed at STAYING IN THE LOOP.
5. Okay, I failed at GEOMETRY my sophomore year, but that was really more about the task of homework than anything else.
6. I failed at respecting ARBITRARY RULES.
7. I failed at SITTING STILL AND PAYING ATTENTION FOR SEVEN HOURS AT A TIME.
I think it's time to own some of the things I excelled and that did not quite fit with the public school format.
1. I excelled at DREAMING.
2. I excelled at USING MY IMAGINATION.
3. I excelled at BEING DIFFERENT.
4. I excelled at WANTING MORE.
5. I excelled at PASSING TESTS EVEN WHEN MY HEAD WAS "STUCK IN THE CLOUDS."
6. Yes, sometimes I excelled at extra-curricular activities, like BASKETBALL and THEATRE.
7. I excelled at LEARNING VERY LITTLE, and still managing to get the same degree everyone else got.
If given the opportunity to excel in whatever they choose, I wonder what would stir the hearts of my daughters?